Flat....

Don't you hate those days where you just feel empty? Flat? Like you just have to keep yourself busy else you'll just break down, cry and lose it?
I've just had one of those days, but yet, I don't know why I felt like that or how to get out of it. I just kept myself busy so it really wouldn't catch up with me. I helped my boyfriend with the shopping, helped with dinner, cleaned his bedroom, sorted washing as well as folding clothes, sorted out bags that were in his bedroom, put the shopping away, and cleaned his cupboard in the kitchen. I've just kept myself busy. I'm really tired, really sore, but yet I can't relax.
I'm writing this blog now so I have something to do and to keep my brain going. I can't stop, I don't want everything to catch up to me. I hate this feeling but yet I don't know how to prevent it or to get rid of it. I just don't get where it has come from.
I give up. I'm going to crawl into bed and just take what's coming, because it's going to come no matter what.
Night xx

Tonight is the Night - Prologue

My life. Don't you ever get that moment in your life where you look back and wonder, "where did it all go wrong?". There always seems to be that one point where your life either goes up or down. But, what goes up must come down, and what goes down must surface.......eventually.
This is my turning point, where I look back and ask, " where did it all go wrong?". However, I went down and never again, surfaced.

LIFE

So, on Monday on our way to poker...We past where my friend had died in a car accident. On the way up to poker, it hurt but I tried not to cry. Just remembering is sad, so I just sat and thought about life. On the way home however, after a few drinks, it hit harder. It upsets me to think that her life was cut so short, and we all take our lives for granted. Im not any different, I know I take my life for granted and don't act in the moment. Life is way too short to just walk through it, take risks.

Life is there to be lived. I wonder how all those people who got their lived taken away from them so suddenly would be doing if they had managed to survive. I reckon they would be doing all the things they always dreamed of doing. Not worry about life anymore. Its too short to play it safe.

So many people say this, "Lifes too short, so live it" but how many of those people follow it? Even after passing where my mate died, I'm still too scared to live my life and take some risks for once. I have a feeling im going to be one of those that says, "I wish I did this. I wish I said that to this person. I wish...I wish...I wish" but im just too scared to do it. I wish I could take the risks that I want to...but....I'll jsut play it safe for now....until I get the confidence to step up, or at least get a hint that I can :)

ADVICE IS WHAT WE ASK FOR WHEN WE KNOW THE ANSWER BUT WISH WE DIDN'T....

Wow.....but the funny thing is....we all know its true..

I was just on Facebook and saw my friend had this as his status and it just took my breath away because it really is true. We always seem to avoid asking the questions in fear that whoever we ask will answer the way we fear most.....

Im going through the same thing right now.....I know the question, my friends know the question, I know the answer I fear most, and they know the answer they would give me....but nothing has been spoken so nothing has been said.

Why do you think we fear asking the questions when we already know the answers ourselves?? Is it fear that the answer would then become real? If its never spoken it doesn't have to exist. I suppose we all live with some fear in our life's.....but do we really want to live behind this fear? To be afraid to ask for advice or help because we are too afraid to admit that we already knew the answer but were hoping that the other person would miraculously be ignoring the truth and give us something else to live off......

I don't know...its a hard topic why we live behind fear. I live behind fear because Im sick of being hurt....but unfortunately...in this instance..i'll be getting hurt either way. Its hard to know whether the worst that we are thinking could be true or false. Im one of those that keeps my questions to myself and never ask for advice. Im the one that gets approached for advice. They've always said that i've given them the advice they wanted to hear or i've helped them...but after reading that status..it's hard to know whether i did more harm than good or whether they actually were being truthful and i did actually help them....

Oh life, why must you be so difficult? I suppose if life was too easy, we would all be bored and it would be the same routine every day. But I guess we could say..Oh life, why can't you be slightly easier and stop us from being so trusting and getting hurt so easily.

I seem to have a problem with trusting people way too quickly and easily. I don't know why, and it always seems to be me that gets hurt in the end. I don't know...its too hard to change who you are some times no matter how hard you tell yourself you want to. You feel like you want to man up for once and get out while your still not hurt.....but you can't...and just go running back to the problem.

Oh well, its who i am....even if it hurts.

Unknown For Now

I held the handle and caressed the metal against my check. The metal was cold, and sent tingles through my body. I always wondered if I was the only person with that affect, when this certain metal thrilled me, excited me, and made me ecstatic to feel it against my skin. I had to try it on someone else. Had to see the affect it had on them, had to see if we were the same.

Her legs and arms were tied to the bed. I left her mouth un-gagged. She had to learn not to scream. She simply had to answer my question.

I climbed next to her on the bed, grabbed her hair away from her face, and pulled so I could reach her ear. I moved my head down so I was next to her ear and breathed slowly.

“How does this feel against your skin?” I whispered as I moved the metal against her skin.

She was hesitant; she hadn’t expected me to say that. She hadn’t thought I would talk.

“It…..feels…..sharp,” she mumbled scared.

I didn’t want that answer. My temper was building. She was supposed to answer differently. I thought she was different to the others.

“THAT’S THE WRONG ANSWER!” I bellowed.

????? Prologue

I just thought I would share:

Tragedy. The fire blazed and licked up the walls.
Screams. Piercing the air. I felt so helpless. Glued to the spot. Wanting to help, but not able to move.
Sirens. Racing down the road toward the house.
I didn't know what to do. If I stayed, they'd have found me and finished me off, just like my friends. If I had called for help, that could have also been trouble. I didn't know who worked for who. They could have been one of them. I can't trust anyone.
So, I had to do what I thought best. I had to run.
I wasn't glued to the spot anymore. The fire no longer held me there. The sirens had stopped and only the lights still flashed. I could no longer hear the screaming, the terror loud in their voices. I had to leave. I couldn't stay any longer.
I turned my back on my past and that house, out to make a new future. Hopefully.
I ran.
BANG!

ROBOT GETS NAMED

I just thought I would share with you that me and one of my besties, Saz, came up with a name for my robot. Well actually I said it was a boy so one of her suggestions got picked.

His name is IKE!!!!

I think its cute. Anyway. Just thought I would share and i am going now. Love ya

OMG ROBOTS!!!

So yesterday i went shopping with my friend Miranda, (Not Koala lol) and i bought i robot building kit, so i thought i would show you my finished robot. As Koala says, when i want to do something, I DO IT! lol

But I still don't have a name for it yet. If you have any suggestions please don't be afraid to comment. I really don't no what to name this little ...umm.....guy.....umm.....girl........umm robot lol.

SO here are some pics.

Ill upload video later, when i get it working lol.
Love ya xoxo

I STOOD UP, WILL YOU??

JUST WANTED TO TEASE!!!

So yeah, I am only making this blog post to tease my mates, lol.
Okay, I'll get down to the teasing.

I HAVE COME UP WITH AN IDEA FOR MY STORY, AND I AM SO NOT TELLING YOU!!! LOL, LOL, LOL.

Just wanted to share.

Love you Saz and Koala.

XOXOX

HERRO!!!

Sorry I haven't blogged for ages guys. Been busy, well not really just haven't really been bothered. Umm okay.....life since I last blogged.....
Well, a few weekends ago was pedal prix. I headed down there with my school for the whole weekend. The girls came 204 (we did good) and the guys came 54 (stupid guys).
Then the Monday, which was the day after, was my birthday. lol. 17!!. I went to school with bright orange wings on. They were so cool. I got heaps of birthday messages lol.
Then that night my brother came home for my birthday and I also had my mates family over.
Oh i forgot to say up there, that my brother left home, like two weeks ago tomorrow.
Anyway, umm, i had my birthday party last weekend. That was heaps of fun. Lots of people. Omg, my cake was amazing, it was done by the Cheesecake shop in Muno Para, or Elizabeth. (they own both, my friends).
I have no idea what else to add.
Oh, i had a girls day yesterday. Me, Saz, Spaz, and Koala. Me and Saz cooked pancakes. It was wikid. Love you girls. We are so so so doing it again, but maybe bigger.

Oh, i just thought i would share with you, well the two people i know that do read my blog, that i finally wrote a STORY!!! Well actually its just the prologue. But still.
http://storywrite.com/story/208608
You should check it out, my girls.

Anyway, totally boring blog post. Love ya all

10 DAYS!!!

So, It's ten days until my birthday.
Pretty sure everyone is getting sick of my counting down.
But now I can count using my fingers.
Just thought I would share.
So lifes pretty craptastic at the moment.
A lost a new friend today.
Luisa.
Didnt know her too well, but she was really really cool.
Today was her last day.
Then in a few weeks, another one of my friends is going.
Arrghh, everyone is leaving me.
I dont want to think who is next, I really dont.

So production is tonight. I have seen it like three times but it changes everytime. There is 216 possible endings. I got it right last night though, so I was happy about that. Even though i got in trouble for playing the game.
Being front of house is actually quite fun. Me and Saz rock. lol. Only bad part about front of house is when everyone turns up at once.

Anyway. Ten days until my birthday. Finally gonna be 17. I've waited a whole year for this. Lol. Nah not really. It's only a birthday. I'm just happy I get to see my family and friends. Plus Luisa is coming back just for my birthday. I was like AWW. Lol

Anyway, better go. I feel sick so yeah. Hopefully getting an early birthday present tomorrow. Yay. My new phone. lol

Anyway. Bye bye. Love ya

Thoughts of You..

Thoughts of you
And how you've changed me
Fill my mind
Without You where would I be

So even though I've tried to express my thanks
It never comes out how I hoped
I want to say so much more so with these simple words
I'll try



I love You
My heart is Yours, only Yours
I long to give You all of me
My everything, my everything



God I never could repay You
You gave everything
Without You where would I be

You still loved me even when I
Pushed You away
You stood there and waited
Till the day I'd return

So even though I've tried to express my thanks
It never comes out
I want to say so much more so with these simple words
I'll try



I love You
My heart is Yours, only Yours, Jesus
I want to give You all of me

I love You
My heart is Yours, only Yours
I long to give You all of me
My everything, my everything



Thoughts of You
And how You've changed me
Fill my mind

LUNCH TIME!!!!!!

So it is lunch time.
Yes that is the time.
I am copying Saz with her layout.
I'm so bored.
She is so cool.
Yes that Sazzleberry of mine.
Oh and we cant forget my fluffy Koala.
I am kinda hypo.
Listening to music liek really loudly in the music room
Was listening to Nine in the Afternoon, but am now listening to White Houses.

Bye. So bored

NEW SONG JAMES SHOWED ME!!!

Hey, i was at James' house this weekend, well not all weekend just Saturday night a bit and Sunday afternoon once we finally got in the house.

Anyway, this is a song that James showed me and he wants to learn to play it and he asked me if i want to sing it. I might............if he is lucky. lol

Love ya. Here is John Mayer with In Your Atmosphere.

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't know what it's like to land and not race to your door

But I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

jgjfjf

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I'm not sure that I really ever could

Hold on to a hotel key

in your bedroom neighborhood

With me sleep walking in Hollywood

jgjfjf

I'm gonna steer clear

Burn up in your atmosphere

I'm gonna steer clear

Cause I'd die if I saw you

I'd die if I didn't see you there

So I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

jgjfjf

I dont think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

Get lost on the boulevard at night

Without your voice to tell me

I love you, take a right

The ten and the two is a lonely sight

jgjfjf

I'm gonna steer clear

Burn up in your atmosphere

I'm gonna steer clear

Cause I'd die if I saw you

I'd die if I didn't see you

jgjfjf

I'm gonna steer clear

Burn up in your atmosphere

I'm gonna steer clear

Cause I'd die if I saw you

I'd die if I didn't see you there, see you there

jgjfjf

I think I'm gonna stay gonna stay, gonna stay in the grey, think i'm gonna stay

All the street lights say nevermind nevermind

All the canyon lines say nevermind

Sunset says we see this all the time, nevermind never you mind

CHEMISTRY!!

Today I got my chemistry assignment back. I got ................................ 24/30. Thats a pass. Out of the people that got their assignments back today, i got the second highest. SO i am very happy about that. Just gotta pass the test on Friday.

Also had a maths test today. I think i did really well. :) SO thats good.

GTG lots to do. Love ya

GOOD NIGHT!!!

Well, its quater past three now. I think it is bed time. I've finished Chemistry, and my article for the news letter. Anyway to late to write longer. Goodnight.

SCHOOL WORK!!!

So, its 3 am or close enough anyway. I havve been up since 1 doing this stupid chemistry assignment that i got given like 4-5 weeks ago. Its funny because, if i had done it straight away, it would have only taken up 2 hours of my time. But then again i did get a little help from on of my mates who pointed me to the right sites. But yeah. Anyway i havent blogged in awhile, so here's my weekend.

Last Saturday, I went to the movies with Koala, Saz and Serebear. We went and saw "WANTED." It was awesome. It wasnt like all the other action movies, it was pretty good. Sunday i spent the whole day with James. We just talked and stuff. It was really good.

SO for the past two weeks i have been suffering from a really bad case of writers block. I havent been able to write anything, including my assignments or blogd, Hence why i didnt do my chem or blog. lol.
I'm tryin to write a poem as well for this poetry contest but i keep blanking out. I have one i just need another.
Talk soon. Bye

DEATHING AND SADDENING!!

So yeah, I am like relly sad for no reason and Mitchell if you read this, shut up, lol. Anyway, i just get really big outbursts of happeniness then i get like hours were i just want to sit and cry, and when i get those moments, i like think, why be sad Ashlea?? This stuff happens in life, it isnt all going to be smooth sailing. Yes you hurt and you hate the fact that it happened, but it did happen, and you have to live with that.

And when i think liek that i like feel happy for a second and then i think like but that was everything to me and all of this sort of stufff and it goes round in a circle again, from me being happy to sad. And i hate the fact that this person feels bad for hurting me. Everytime they say that, i got like worked up in myself thinking, you told me the truth, and least you hurt me doing that than lying, and like this is part of life, people get hurt, you cant help that sometimes. You just need to be gently and careful with the person you hurt.

I just hate all of this, you have no idea how confused i am right now. Its just like, what the hell is happening. Especially when you go from rainbows to rain and thunder. (sorry see told you i am confused. My brain isnt working properly). Anyway i should go.

Bye

NYSF!!

I didn't get in.

TOMORROW!!!

So as you know, my interview is tomorrow. I am so nervous. I have finally picked out what I am wearing and stuff, I have finished my talk and I am trying to memorize it and I have most of my research ready for the actually interview. But I am still nervous.

Anyway, just a quick post to say Thnak you to everyone thta has faith in me and thinks I will do great. Thanks for those that hve read over my talk and love it. Thnaks for every single person that has said, you'll do great, and good luck. Thank you so much.

Love ya lots.
Ashlea

WORRIED AND STRESSED!

So, as I mentioned in my last blog, I have my finally interview this Sunday for the National Youth Science Forum. Since I found out it was this Sunday and that i haad to write a 3 minute talk about anything, I have been really stressed, because I feel I am not ready and writing something about anything is really hard. This is the second time I have had to write about anything, and I feel it is a hard to choose a topic to write about. Anything is to big a range. Anyway, I finally settled on something, and I have just finished it, and I mean like just.

Now I just have to make sure I am ready for the interview part. That i know all there is to know about NYSF as well as all the courses and stuff I am interested in. Major stressed out. I just want someone as well to help me, well I have one of my teachers helping me with the talk, like making sure it does make sense, but i want someone to help me with the interview, like ask me fake questions to do with the topic. AHH major stressing out happening here.

Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress!

My Bad :$

Anyway, I should go and stress somewhere else. I was talking to one of my teachers yesterday, and he had asked whether I had already had my interview, i replied saying no, its this Sunday, and that I was worried and stressing. He said, you don't need to stress or worry. You went in with nothing, if you don't get through, you will come out with the experience of entering this, and the knowledge from you interviews and stuff. If you get in, you gain the experience of the interview process as well as the actual forum. You don't need to stress.

I liked that but, I am still stressing. I think I need a hug. :(. I could get a hug from my brother, but nah, I'm okay. My mum is watching a video and my dad has gone out. No one really to give me a hug :(

I NO!!!! I'LL GET SOME CHOCOLATE!!!

Peace out xox

NYSF!!!

Sorry I haven't blogged about this sooner, but as they say, better late than never.

Almost two months ago, I registered for The National Youth Science Forum. This is a 12 day trip to Canberra to do with science, engineering, and IT. So, I gave my application forum, plus a letter, to my principle who is a member of the Kapunda Rotary Club for the Rotary to look over and think about whether they would like to tinterview me.

About a month ago, i received a letter from my principle stating that, two other members from Rotary, plus himself, would like to interview me. I was so nervous. I was getting tips from everyone about how to look confident and to just be myself and to keep smiling. :D. I went to the interview extremly nervous, to tell you the truth. I did smile lots nd laugh abit, but at the end of the day, i wasn't really being myself, thats something i will work on, but i still feel i did quite okay.

The next morning after our first meeting in ABW, my teacher, and hour after school had started, told me that she had a letter for me. She had no idea that i had actually been waiting all morning for it. My principle had said the previous day, after the interview, that he will contact me the following day with my results. I ran outside to open the letter because i didnt want to seem excited in front of my friends, just to find out that i didn't get to the next stage. One of my best mates, Saz, also ran out with me. My hands were actually shaking as i open the envelope. I GOT TO THE NEXT STAGE! I was so excited. My principle wanted to see me about stuff that i could improve on before my next interview.

A couple of days later, i actually received a phone call from NYSF asking if i was free that Sunday for my next interview. I was so not ready, and i was busy, so i was un-able to attend that interview. They said, thats okay and that they will send me a timetable of when my interview would be.

The reason i am telling you this today, is because i actually got my email this afternoon, telling me that my interview is this Sunday, 1:30-3:30pm. When i read it, i was excited because i finally got it, i had been checking my emails everyday, wondering when i wuld get it. But i was also nervous because i read what would be happening. I'm semi nervous about the individual interview, i'm not really nervous about the group activities, but i am really nervous about the 3 minute talk on anything i choose, that i have to prepare. I dont no what to talk about.

Anyway, i should go. I need to research for my talk. A suggestionn was put forwards about talking about chocolate. I like chocolate :$ lol.

Anyway, its 5:10am and i should go. Bye bye

REPORT CARD!!!

Like i said in my previous blog today, i'm sorry i haven't blogged in awhile. So i thought now would be a good time to tell you how i went on my report card

A*Chemistry
A*English
A*Maths
B+*Music
B+*Physics
B+*Australian Studies.

So i did okay at least. Better than last time. I have no C's this time. lol

Peace out.

Ps. I have been on a massive download spree for songs. If you have any ideas on what i should download, please let me no. Thanks

MASK PARTY!!

This Saturday night, i am going to a mask party, so all yesterday i was looking for ideas for my mask. I semi found one but i changed it. Here is what my mask has looked like, over the hours of me changing it. Peace out.

ps. sorry i haven't blogged in awhile. Love ya

STOLEN!!!!

I just stole this from Saz's blog, with her permission of course. SO yeah. I loved it so so much. Peace Out


No matter how many problems.
No matter how much sadness.
No matter what.
Love is worth it.
The smiles.
The hugs & kisses.
The feeling that someone cares.
Love overrules everything.
<3

-Saz

My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that

NEW SEMESTER!!

A new school semester starts tomorrow. Finally, my school work life can just be started over. I promise to do better this time. I say that at the start of every term, but i am sick of the stress from school. Teachers think we dont have social lives. As well as stresses that they don't know about. I got in trouble from the music teacher one day because, someone close to my friends died and my uncle was having his funeral on the same day, and i started crying, in class. She was like "From now on, keep everything at the door when you come in, i am sick of it." Its not my fault that i got really emotional because two people had died. I was so angry at her. But she semi has a point. I plan on keeping everything at the door from now on. It is going to be really hard.

Anyway, enough about my crap. New Semester starts tomorrow. No more procrastinating, and my work will get done. Catch ya later

MULTI-ARTS EVENING!

Sorry i haven't blogged in a while. So the Multi Arts Evening was okay..............ish. I had to sing with the vocal group, which i had a solo and i completely screwed it up, and i mean completely screwed it. Then i had singing with our year 11 ensemble. I did better in that than i did in my solo. When i screwed up my solo, the senior vocal group had to stand back while the junior girls came on. I just started crying, but only a few tears as i had to go back in front of the mic. As soon as i got off stage i just started crying so much.
After the first act, which was just after my solo, pretty much everyone back stage wanted to go see their family. I was too nervous to see James because i had screwed up and I didnt want to see him after i had screwed up. Spaz, Koala, and Bree (Chelsea's little sister) were trying to get me inside, then Spaz walked inside to get James outside and i followed in. I wouldnt look him in the eyes because i had screwed up. I was so nervous. I hate screwing up in front of him. I just hate it.
Anyway, talk soon. gottanother blog on another topic

Love ya.

STILL SO TIRED!!!

Been doing so much homework. I hope i get it all done then tomorrow night will be great because at least then i wont have to worry that i didn't get some thing done in time. But then again, tomorrow night i have the Multi Arts Evening and i am so nervous. I really am. There will be people there and me singing and ....................... *mep*.................. i am getting nervous just thinking about it. I am going heaps red. Arrgh....... stop thinking about it. Stop thinking about it. Arrghh. I am gonna go. I need to relax more.


Argh.

Bye bye

SO TIRED!!!!!!!

OMG!!! SCHOOL WORK = GAYHE!!!!!!

I was up at 2am, doing my Australian Studies report. I still have one more to do plus an english assignment, plus a music assignment and a chemistry write up. I am so over school. Good job it is over tomorrow, and then we have ABW (Australian Business Week). I am over school. Next term i plan on actually doing work instead of procrastinating so much. I just get home and procrastinate. I don't do any of my assignments until they are over due or my teachers are yelling at me because i havent handed them up. SO OVA SCHOOL!!!

At least school holidays are in two weeks. Then i can just stay in bed all holidays and not have to do any school work.

Bye Bye. I will blog tonight at two in the morning because i will be up again.

NOTHING!!!

Nothing to blog at the moment. School work = crap. Exams = crap. Life = ....................................crap.

Btw, if anyone knows a good thread that can sew someone broken back together, please let me know.


Bye

ABOUT ME!!!

I stole this from Jewelz

ONE WORD ONLY!

Not as easy as you might think. Now copy, forward, or post this and change the answers to yours and pass it on. It’s really hard to only use one word answers.

1. Where is your cell phone? Desk

2. Your significant other? Home

3. Your hair? Brown

4. Your mother? Work.

5. Your father? Doctors.

6. Your favorite thing? Pens.

7. Your dream last night? Weird.

8. Your favorite drink? Fanta.

9. Your dream/goal? Sleep.

10. The room you’re in? Lounge.

11. Your ex? Forgotten

12. Your fear? Spiders.

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Studying.

14. Where were you last night? Home.

15. What you’re not? Tall.

16. Muffins? Chocolate.

17. One of your wish list items? D.

18. Where you grew up? SA/England.

19. The last thing you did? Yawned.

20. What are you wearing? Trackies.

21. Your TV? Off.

22. Your pets? Dont.

23. Your computer? Computer.

24. Your life? BUSY.

25. Your mood? Non-Existent.

26. Missing someone? Yep.

27. Your car? Non-Existent.

28. Something you’re not wearing? Gloves.

29. Favorite store? Anything.

30. Your summer? Missing.

31. Your favorite color? ORANGE.

32. Last time you laughed? Yesterday.

33. Last time you cried? Yesterday.

34. Like(love) someone? Yep

35. Who will re-post this? Dunno.

There you go. Thats a bit about me.

Peace out

CAMP WAS WIKID!!!

Sorry i like haven't blogged before now. Busy getting assignments done by this week (which i haven't done) and also getting ready for exams. Anyway. Last Thursday 43 year 11 students headed off into the big city. Among them where three girls. Ashlea, Saz, Koala. Very hypo girls who love to have fun. They ran around Adelaide trying no to get lost, and just wanted to have some fun.
Okay, i am over this. Camp was wikid. Saz, Koala, and I had lots of fun. Thursday night we went into Marion shopping centre and had some fun. Just checked out shops for two hours, and even got a piercing. Check this out.

Thats my tragus. It so hurt.

We went to the movies that night as well and saw 21. That was a wikid movie. If you wanna check out some pictures, go to my read and check out Miss Sazzle's blog. So yeah that was camp. We ran around again on Friday, then went home. Thats about it.

Catch ya later

THATS ME!!!

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new. However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like. You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation. You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

I WROTE THIS LAST NIGHT!!

I wrote this last night. I started writing it about something in particular and some people out there might actually understand what it was originally going to be about, but half way through the meaning to me changed. Tell me what you think. Please leave a comment. I want to know.

Where Were You?

"Where were you when I was ecstatic?

When I was lovesick or even homesick?

Where were you when life was great?

When everything, I could locate?

Where were you when my feelings got messed around?

When I got thrown around then chucked to the ground?

Where were you when I needed you?

Where were you when there were only few?

Where were you when I stood alone?

Whenever I cried on the phone?

Where were you when my pillow became wet?

When I cried myself to sleep, never to forget?

Where were you when the pain was unbearable?

When the hurt was so bad, I had to be careful?

You where there.

You where there through the comfort

You where there through the blissful.

You where there through the hurt.

You where there through the tearful.

You where there, but I never saw you."

Peace Out

JUST SENT!!!

I just had this sent to me. I really like it. I thought it was really nice. Please told me what your thoughts are on it.

"Life isn't just full of happiness,
It's sunsets, it's love, it's tears.
It's the thoughts of yesterdays memories,
That can wash away all out fears.

It's that very painful experience,
That each one of us has had.
It's the laughter that fills the air,
It's the tears when you are sad.

It's loving that someone special,
That at one time made you smile.
It's the pain of losing that person,
But the memories that make it worthwhile.

It's that child in every one of us,
Although in time we'll all be old.
It's the good times we'll never forget,
It's the memories we'll always hold.

It's the hug that we all need,
When we'd rather drown in our sorrow.
It's the hope in every one of us,
That makes us hold on for tomorrow"

Peace Out

CHOCOLATE BUG BITES AGAIN

YUM YUM YUM!!!!!!!!!!!

ME AND MACKENZIE WHEN A CAMERA IS INVOLVED

We had some fun. LOL LOL LOL.
Love ya

RANDOM STUFF!!!

My Fridge


Check my button

YEAR 11 CAMP

I made this countdown because Year 11 camp is coming up, so yeah.

FOR MIRANDA!!!! love

So yeah. I am only blogging because Miranda told me to. "You do as I say, young-un! *shakes cane at you* young whippersnapperzes!"

So i thought i would write about camp that is coming up. Next Thursday is our Year 11 camp. I think it is going to be so much fun. To bad Spaz isnt here to enjoy it with Saz, Koala and me. But she is probably having more fun in Bali. Anyway. Saz, Koala and I are going to be totally hypo and just have so much fun just being together and having no teachers breathing down our necks. Well we will just be having fun.

So anyway, that is something to look forward too, but i have to put up with the rest of this week and two days next week of school, before we get a couple of days off.

I got nothin else to say.
Love ya

PRETTY GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!

Hey I just thought i would share that i had a pretty good day today. I got my Chemistry results and i got 43/46. 2nd highest in the class. So that was good. Then in Physics we did some questions which i got all right, then we discussed the experiment conducted the day before. What it was, was that you had to get a flask of water (100mL) then hook a light bulb up to a power source, then shove the light bulb in the water, stick a thermometer into the water as well, then turn the bulb on. Every body did that. The whole idea was to figure out how much heat energy was coming out compared to how much was going in, and if anybody out there has done Physic, one of the energy notes is that "you can't create energy, it is transfered."

Anyway, were i am going with this is that the energy (in J) going in was about 5000 odd J. The energy that was coming out was 6000 odd J. Thats not possible. And that just in heat energy. Light energy hasn't been put in this equation. Spaz and I (after we had finished our Maths test which was the lesson after Physics (I think i did well, Well i finished it )) decided to head back to the Physics lab to do some research with the teacher. That was near the end of the 6th lesson. 7th lesson was study and we ended up still being in the Physics lab, doing more research. We figured out, by the figures obtained yesterday, that Spaz's light bulb was 113% efficient in heat. Nothing adds up. Any body with any suggestions, please talk to me about it. We need help.

Any way, when i got home i had to clean because it is my brother's birthday party tomorrow. He was 19 last Monday. So yeah. Then I did more of a certain something that will be given to a certain someone on a certain day. LOL

Sorry about all my rambling about Physics. and if you made it to the end with out getting bored and closing my blog, then congratulations.

Have a great weekend. Catchya later. Who knows i might see you tomorrow.

BUBBLETASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you ever feel that you are just in a bubble? To tell you the truth, I have no idea where i am going with this post. Because I .............. i dont no. Its hard to describe. I feel like i am in a bubble because everything that is inside, won't go out, it doesn't seem to get fixed. But i dont feel like i am in a bubble because, more stuff from the outside, keeps coming in.
When i read other peoples blogs and hear what they are going through, i feel like i am worrying over nothing. But i guess to me, not having experienced the stuff they are going through, makes me feel like this.
Like i said above, i dont no where i am going with this. I was told by a few people, that i need to talk to someone, but when ever i plan to go talk to someone they aren't here, or the people that have been suggested, it would be kinda hard for me to talk to them, because of a number of reasons.

Anyway, gotta go, gotta clean my room.

Love ya

CUTE LITTLE THING!!!!!!!!

I found this so cute little thing. It is gorgeous. That how old i am. Plus 16 years. LOL




And this one is until my birthday lol



I think they are so cute. LOVE YA

CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The title says it all........................................................

WHITE OUT!!!!

Today, during Physics, my white out decided to be stupid. I went to pull of the lid to the pen, but the other lid for the brush wasn't screwed on properly, so when I pulled, I pulled both lids off and the white out went everywhere. All down my neck and top, all over my hands and fingers, and also on my pants. It looks very, very sus. I will put some photos on later to show you. But I am so not happy. It is really annoying me, plus my neck is now getting really itchy.

I have had so many people ask me what happened and so many people look and laugh and stuff like that. I am so not happy.

Anyway, at the moment that has been my most stressful thing for today, besides all my homework and stuff I am behind in. Anyway, I am totally over this and I am still majorly stressed.

Catcha later

STRESSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you have seen me lately, alot of people know that i have been really stressed. I have unfortunately suffered from a lot of break downs lately. When i think back, the only things that have been stressing me out aren't really that big compared to what other people have to go through. I look at some people that have worse things happening in their lives than i do and i think, "Why am i getting so worked up over these things?" But i guess the real reason i am getting so worked up is the fact that this stuff does stress me out. I haven't experienced anything bigger so even these small thing stress me out.

Like homework, and school and being so behind in my work.

And then there are friend problems. Don't get me wrong, i love that my friends can trust me to keep there secrets and to give them advice, but if every single person comes up to me with some of the massive secrets i have been given, it really does stress me out, having to worry about not only myself but them.

And then, no offense, but there were some boyfriend troubles. Luckily they got sorted out, but ages ago i had a major breakdown because i had a fight with James. For those of you that read my other blog, you know how much James means to me, so when we fight it really does affect me.

And then there are hormones, which make everything look bigger than they already are, and affect me more. So as you can tell, i get stressed easily.

I just thought i would let my feelings out, instead of keeping them bottled inside, because i also know how much that can hurt as well.

Okay i am off to bed. Unfortunately that didn't make me feel much better. Hopefully i can feel better later. Love ya

WANNA KNOW SOMETHIGN FUNNY??? (don't laugh Saz (lol))

I was just looking at my friend's (Miranda) blog, and she has this list titled, "You Know You're Bored When...." And i was reading through it when i remembered that i had actually done one of the things on the list.
The list is as follows:

• You type in 'staplers' in the Google search engine
• You try to count how many hairs you have... on your head
• You become intensely interested in your fingernails
• You consider the financial impact hair loss can have on whales
• You contemplate the life cycle of a unicorn

So I thought I would share with you what I actually did.


Peace out

QUIZ

Random quiz I stole off Saz

What is under your bed?
Boxes

What colour is your toothbrush?
Pink and White

Name one person that made you smile today.
James

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
I was on the bus

What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
On Netlog

What is your favourite chocolate bar?
Ummmm.......... CHOCOLATE!!

Have you ever been to a strip club?
No.

What is the last thing you said aloud?
Lots of stuff. I never stop talking. LOL :$

What is the best ice cream flavour?
Vanilla Choc Chip

What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water

What are you wearing right now?
A singlet and short shorts

What was the last thing you ate?
A Roll Up

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
Nope

When was the last time you ran?
Like i dont no

The last sporting event you watched?
Sports Day???

Do you go to church every Sunday?
Almost every

Do you have a tan?
In places

Do you like Chinese food over pizza?
I Love Pizza

Do you drink your soda with a straw?
Yep

What did your last text message say?
"I Love you" and probably other stuff

Are you someone's best friend?
I think so

What are you doing tomorrow?
School and home work

Where is your dad?
On a Plane

Look to your left, what do you see?
A Guitar

What colour is your watch?
Gold and White

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
People

What is your birthstone?
Sapphire

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Yeah, i go in

What is your favourite number?
22 and 5

Do you have a dog?
No i dont

Last person you talked to on the phone?
James a couple of mins ago

Have you met anyone famous?
Lots of people

Any plans today?
Actually do some homework

Do you dye your hair?
Yes

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Homework.

Last song listened to?
Wll i am listening to Untouched and Heaven Candlelight mix

Can you say the alphabet backwards?
Yep

Favourite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
My black school shoes, i wear every day and they have cool shoe laces because i did them

Do you love anyone?
Definitely

Do you eat healthy?
Ummmmmmmm................ next question

What do you usually do during the day?
School or hanging with James :)

What color is your hair?
Brown.

REPORT CARDS!!!

I got my report card today. Here is what i got:

PHYSICS: C+
AUSTRALIAN STUDIES: B
ENGLISH: A
MATHS: A
MUSIC: A
CHEMISTRY: A+


So i did pretty good.
Catch ya