DEATHING AND SADDENING!!

So yeah, I am like relly sad for no reason and Mitchell if you read this, shut up, lol. Anyway, i just get really big outbursts of happeniness then i get like hours were i just want to sit and cry, and when i get those moments, i like think, why be sad Ashlea?? This stuff happens in life, it isnt all going to be smooth sailing. Yes you hurt and you hate the fact that it happened, but it did happen, and you have to live with that.

And when i think liek that i like feel happy for a second and then i think like but that was everything to me and all of this sort of stufff and it goes round in a circle again, from me being happy to sad. And i hate the fact that this person feels bad for hurting me. Everytime they say that, i got like worked up in myself thinking, you told me the truth, and least you hurt me doing that than lying, and like this is part of life, people get hurt, you cant help that sometimes. You just need to be gently and careful with the person you hurt.

I just hate all of this, you have no idea how confused i am right now. Its just like, what the hell is happening. Especially when you go from rainbows to rain and thunder. (sorry see told you i am confused. My brain isnt working properly). Anyway i should go.

Bye

NYSF!!

I didn't get in.

TOMORROW!!!

So as you know, my interview is tomorrow. I am so nervous. I have finally picked out what I am wearing and stuff, I have finished my talk and I am trying to memorize it and I have most of my research ready for the actually interview. But I am still nervous.

Anyway, just a quick post to say Thnak you to everyone thta has faith in me and thinks I will do great. Thanks for those that hve read over my talk and love it. Thnaks for every single person that has said, you'll do great, and good luck. Thank you so much.

Love ya lots.
Ashlea

WORRIED AND STRESSED!

So, as I mentioned in my last blog, I have my finally interview this Sunday for the National Youth Science Forum. Since I found out it was this Sunday and that i haad to write a 3 minute talk about anything, I have been really stressed, because I feel I am not ready and writing something about anything is really hard. This is the second time I have had to write about anything, and I feel it is a hard to choose a topic to write about. Anything is to big a range. Anyway, I finally settled on something, and I have just finished it, and I mean like just.

Now I just have to make sure I am ready for the interview part. That i know all there is to know about NYSF as well as all the courses and stuff I am interested in. Major stressed out. I just want someone as well to help me, well I have one of my teachers helping me with the talk, like making sure it does make sense, but i want someone to help me with the interview, like ask me fake questions to do with the topic. AHH major stressing out happening here.

Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress!

My Bad :$

Anyway, I should go and stress somewhere else. I was talking to one of my teachers yesterday, and he had asked whether I had already had my interview, i replied saying no, its this Sunday, and that I was worried and stressing. He said, you don't need to stress or worry. You went in with nothing, if you don't get through, you will come out with the experience of entering this, and the knowledge from you interviews and stuff. If you get in, you gain the experience of the interview process as well as the actual forum. You don't need to stress.

I liked that but, I am still stressing. I think I need a hug. :(. I could get a hug from my brother, but nah, I'm okay. My mum is watching a video and my dad has gone out. No one really to give me a hug :(

I NO!!!! I'LL GET SOME CHOCOLATE!!!

Peace out xox

NYSF!!!

Sorry I haven't blogged about this sooner, but as they say, better late than never.

Almost two months ago, I registered for The National Youth Science Forum. This is a 12 day trip to Canberra to do with science, engineering, and IT. So, I gave my application forum, plus a letter, to my principle who is a member of the Kapunda Rotary Club for the Rotary to look over and think about whether they would like to tinterview me.

About a month ago, i received a letter from my principle stating that, two other members from Rotary, plus himself, would like to interview me. I was so nervous. I was getting tips from everyone about how to look confident and to just be myself and to keep smiling. :D. I went to the interview extremly nervous, to tell you the truth. I did smile lots nd laugh abit, but at the end of the day, i wasn't really being myself, thats something i will work on, but i still feel i did quite okay.

The next morning after our first meeting in ABW, my teacher, and hour after school had started, told me that she had a letter for me. She had no idea that i had actually been waiting all morning for it. My principle had said the previous day, after the interview, that he will contact me the following day with my results. I ran outside to open the letter because i didnt want to seem excited in front of my friends, just to find out that i didn't get to the next stage. One of my best mates, Saz, also ran out with me. My hands were actually shaking as i open the envelope. I GOT TO THE NEXT STAGE! I was so excited. My principle wanted to see me about stuff that i could improve on before my next interview.

A couple of days later, i actually received a phone call from NYSF asking if i was free that Sunday for my next interview. I was so not ready, and i was busy, so i was un-able to attend that interview. They said, thats okay and that they will send me a timetable of when my interview would be.

The reason i am telling you this today, is because i actually got my email this afternoon, telling me that my interview is this Sunday, 1:30-3:30pm. When i read it, i was excited because i finally got it, i had been checking my emails everyday, wondering when i wuld get it. But i was also nervous because i read what would be happening. I'm semi nervous about the individual interview, i'm not really nervous about the group activities, but i am really nervous about the 3 minute talk on anything i choose, that i have to prepare. I dont no what to talk about.

Anyway, i should go. I need to research for my talk. A suggestionn was put forwards about talking about chocolate. I like chocolate :$ lol.

Anyway, its 5:10am and i should go. Bye bye

REPORT CARD!!!

Like i said in my previous blog today, i'm sorry i haven't blogged in awhile. So i thought now would be a good time to tell you how i went on my report card

A*Chemistry
A*English
A*Maths
B+*Music
B+*Physics
B+*Australian Studies.

So i did okay at least. Better than last time. I have no C's this time. lol

Peace out.

Ps. I have been on a massive download spree for songs. If you have any ideas on what i should download, please let me no. Thanks

MASK PARTY!!

This Saturday night, i am going to a mask party, so all yesterday i was looking for ideas for my mask. I semi found one but i changed it. Here is what my mask has looked like, over the hours of me changing it. Peace out.

ps. sorry i haven't blogged in awhile. Love ya

STOLEN!!!!

I just stole this from Saz's blog, with her permission of course. SO yeah. I loved it so so much. Peace Out


No matter how many problems.
No matter how much sadness.
No matter what.
Love is worth it.
The smiles.
The hugs & kisses.
The feeling that someone cares.
Love overrules everything.
<3

-Saz

My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that